I got to spend the day with my amazing nephews and sister. It doesn’t get much better than that. As soon as I walked in the door Joey yelled that he missed me. The best words to hear from a 4 year old. Owen was so excited to see me he threw his food and gave me a hug. My nephews rule.
Every time I hang out with Kelly we end up having super deep emotional life conversations about family and drama and everything and anything in between. We always end up crying but it’s a safe environment and I feel totally comfortable opening up to her.
She’s one of the only people that see how insane my whole family is, including my parents. And she’s made me realize that I’m lucky and need to embrace all the CrossFit people who are like mothers to me. I no longer feel guilty about going to them, because it’s ok. I have this bitterness, hurt, and anger towards my parents..more so my mom, and I feel like she deserves it and it’s okay for me to be that way but at the same time I know it’s not healthy. But she pointed out many good points and that how I feel is okay.
I’ve got to get my life on track and get out of this negative, dark, depressing black hole.